Friday, June 30, 2006

The M&M Minis!


Yesterday, Matt and I went to "pick up" our M & M Minis at the Shady Grove facility in Rockville. Of the 16 eggs that had originally fertilized, 6 made it to the blastocyst stage and five made it to the pre-blastocyst stage. We made the decision to put back only two, leaving us with nine leftovers that will continue to be monitored. Any embryos that are still doing well in a few days will be cryopreserved for potential future use. I am now done with my 24 hours of bedrest, and I must begin my 2 to 3 days of light activity. During our wait until the beta test, I must still take a prenatal vitamin, a baby aspirin, 2 estrace tablets, and my PIO intramuscular injection every day. I am feeling just fine, outside of the fact that the PIO shots have the same effect as arthritis...make me very achey in my butt and hips and forces me to walk like an old woman. If it weren't for that, all would be right with the world!

Pictured above are the M&M Minis that we put back. In two weeks we will know if they are planning to stay with us or not. We will keep you posted!

(photo image of our day five blastocysts graciously provided by Martha Anderson of Shady Grove Fertility Reproductive Science Center of Rockville, MD. Thank you, Martha! Dr. Stephen J. Greenhouse must receive credit for putting the M&M Minis back where they belong!)

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Blastocysts come home tomorrow!

Tomorrow is the big day when we go to collect our little blastocysts. Our appointment is scheduled for 11am at the Rockville, MD clinic location. We need to arrive at the clinic by 10:30am. On the trip in, I need to drink approximately 36 oz. of fluid, preferably Gatorade. It is necessary for me to have a full bladder for the egg (blastocyst) transfer. Once I am ready for transfer, the RE will insert a sterile catheter through the cervical opening and into the uterus. They will place the selected blastocyst(s) into the desired location in the uterus and then the catheter will be removed. I need to lay down for at least 20 minutes and then I will be released. I must remain on bedrest for a 24 hour period following the egg transfer. I plan to gather a good collection of books and magazines today for my down time. The 24 hours of bedrest are followed by two to three days of light activity. After this time, I should be able to go back to my normal routine.

My nurse will be calling on Monday of next week to let us know how many blastocysts were cryopreserved. Any that make it to this stage could be used down the road.

We are scheduled for our beta test (test to check for levels of beta-HCG, or pregnancy hormone, in the blood) on July 12th. If the test comes back positive, then we celebrate. If it comes back negative, we are already scheduled for a follow-up appointment with our RE on July 26th. At this appointment we would talk about any next steps that we might take, such as FET (frozen embryo transfer).

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

"How to give your horse an intramuscular injection..."

In my search to justify my pain related to PIO intramuscular injections, I came across this weblink. I did a Google search for "intramuscular injections PIO" and the above quote was splayed across the screen under the title: useful links. I had no idea that learning how to give my horse (which I didn't even know that I had) an intramuscular injection would help me in any way, but who am I to judge? Isn't the internet a god in a sense...all-knowing? Isn't it supposed to provide me with all the answers that I seek? Ah...or do I actually have to disseminate the information that it so willingly provides? I am going with the latter. I will skip learning how to shoot up my non-existent horse for now.

My actual quest was to find information that would help me to rationalize and to justify my fear of the PIO shots. I kept telling myself that I was a being a total sissy....that I dreaded these shots for no reason. Everybody is doing it (well, everybody in the IVF world, that is), right? So - what is the big deal? I didn't often hear other people complain about these injections, so I thought that my fears and pain must be irrational. Apparently, though, I was wrong. Through my internet searches, I have learned that I do not lack for company at this party. Women across the infertility world are banding together to compare notes on the side effects of these injections and tips for avoiding the unpleasant ones (which, frankly, they all are).

I have learned that regardless of what you do beforehand, afterward, or in the middle, that you will end up sore. There will be bleeding. There will be bruising. There could be lumping under the skin. This will not get better during the duration of the time that these injections are necessary. You must only get more clever in your attempts to avoid hitting a previously injected site, as this will just make all of the side-effects that much worse (this feat, however, is nearly impossible given the potential timeframe for the shots). Some general tips for making the most of it:

  • Thoroughly warm the oil prior to giving the injection. This will thin the oil and make it easier to inject. You can warm the oil by placing it in your bra for ten minutes, or by running it under very warm (not hot) water.
  • Make sure that the person who is administering the shot gets the injection site pulled as taut as possible. This will help to eliminate some of the potential bruising involved.
  • Always remember to pull back on the plunger once the needle is inserted to check for blood. Blood would be a sign that a vein has been hit, and this can cause serious problems.
  • Inject all of the oil slowly and steadily.
  • Pull the needle straight out after completing the injection, and do this quickly.
  • Apply gauze or a bandage, and gently massage the oil into the muscle.
  • Apply heat (heating pad or warm washcloth) as you massage. This will keep the oil thin and help it dissolve into the muscle more easily.
  • Walk around, walk up stairs...do whatever you can to keep your muscle loose. This will cause less aches and pains in the morning (although not much less).
  • Avoid punching the person who has given you the shot. They are only doing their "job", therefore retaliation would be seen as less than called for. Remember...your partner is suffering through this process, too (yeah...right!)

Even by following these instructions, women have complained that they still have sore spots MONTHS or more after receiving their last shot. So - we pay a great price to gain a great reward. Hopefully any children produced via this process will appreciate later in life the true sacrifice of their mothers. If not, I do think it is fair to punish them for their insolence....well, ok, maybe not. But - I do think bigger presents would be in order for Mother's Day for sure!

No Transfer For Us Today!!!!

This is fantastic news. We have officially been pushed off until Thursday for our embryo transfer. This means that at least the majority of our embryos are still dividing and progressing well, so we will be doing a five day blastocyst transfer. Given that we will be doing a five day transfer, we will only be putting two embryos back.

I haven't heard back from my nurse yet to find out how many of the embryos are still going strong, but I will update this post as soon as she calls!

Today is the first day since my egg retrieval that I am feeling almost human again. These last few days have been very difficult for me physically, but I am turning the corner. Now, my biggest complaint is that my backside aches all of the time. As soon as one side starts feeling better after receiving a PIO injection, it is time to get shot up on that side again. I am very willing to look at this as a happy problem to have if we end up pregnant in the end.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Still looking good!

Today's fertilization report showed that all 16 eggs that fertilized are now "cleaving". This means that they are dividing as they should. It is a very positive sign that all of them have continued to progress. I have to wait until tomorrow morning for another report to tell us if we are doing our embryo transfer tomorrow afternoon, or if we get to wait until Thursday. I should know by 10am. We are certainly hoping to be able to do the five day transfer, as the odds of implantation are much better at that stage.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Hear Ye, Hear Ye....Fertilization Report

Out of the 22 follicles that they retrieved yesterday, we had a whopping 16 fertilize. This is great news, and it is above the average number for fertilization. Tomorrow we will receive another report telling us how all of the cells are dividing. We will find out at that time whether we will be doing a 3 day transfer (Tuesday) or a 5 to 6 day transfer (Thursday or Friday). We hope to make it to a five day transfer, as the embryos reach the blastocyst stage at this time and have a much better implantation rate.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

More Photos from ER Day at Shady Grove




Me all hooked up. Also pics of my two fantastic nurses. The staff at Shady Grove is top notch!



ER DAY


Well, today was the big day....egg retrieval day. I woke up at 5am to get some food in my tummy and then went back to bed for a bit. I drank a bunch of Gatorade up until 8:30am and then I was cut off from all food and drink. I was able to shower this morning, but I could not put on lotion, perfume, makeup, or jewelry, so I was looking absolutely stunning today.

We arrived at Shady Grove and got things started immediately. I was first hooked up to an IV to get some fluids in me. After that, one of my nurses took my vitals and got me admitted (please note: "admitted" NOT "committed"). A bit later my anesthetist came in and got me prepped for the procedure. I had to empty my bladder and then walk with my IV into the procedure room. He pumped in some meds that would start making me sleepy, and oh did I love those! I was awake for another minute, and the next thing I remember is coming to in the recovery room. Because my heart rate / pulse dropped to 50 during the procedure, I had to have additional special meds given to me via IV. These meds caused me to have severe cotton mouth and made me feel a bit sick. Upon coming to, I was given anti-nausea meds in my IV and I took some Tylenol. The Tylenol wasn't cutting it, so I was given Vicodin, as well. Given the amount of discomfort I felt, my nurse administered some pain medication to my IV on top of the Vicodin and Tylenol. This helped tremendously, and I was able to go home soon after that. All in all, the results were quite pleasantly surpising. They were able to retrieve 22 follicles.

The ride home was brutal with all of the bumps and turns, but I have been feeling much better since arriving home. Matt administered my first progesterone in oil (PIO) intramuscular (IM)injection this evening, and it wasn't too bad. My muscle sort of jumped / contracted when the needle went in, but outside of that it was fine. Matt needs to massage the area for me after I receive a shot and then I need to put some heat on it. I also walk around for a bit to work out some of the pain. All of these things help to make the muscle feel better and help to keep the oil from pooling in that one spot and becoming lumpy. I need to take the rest of my hormones, vitamins, aspirin, and meds later this evening. I have to take it easy the rest of the day today and tomorrow, but I will should be all better come Monday. We will receive a fertilization report tomorrow afternoon from my primary nurse, and she will be able to tell us how many eggs fertilized and how many of those are dividing into multiple cells. By Monday we will know what day our egg transfer will take place.

Friday, June 23, 2006

"Trigger" Happy and The Egg Retrieval

So, the trigger shot went fine. Crazy, though. I had Matt set his clock alarm and his watch alarm to get us up. We had really bad thunderstorms move in last night, and I was worried that we would lose power, the alarm would never go off, and we would not wake up. That would be just my luck! Anyway, the power did go out, but the storms woke us up at 12:24am. The power was back on by that point, and I went downstairs to mix up the shot. I think I was still half asleep. I had a few minutes left prior to shot time, so I asked Matt if I should ice the injection area to help numb it up. Just then...BOOM, CRACK, KA-POW....the power went out again. I was swearing like a sailor, and Matt was frantically searching for the lantern. He was prepared to shoot me up via lantern light if necessary. Thankfully - two minutes later the power came back on. I skipped the icing part and went straight for the shot. Matt didn't hesistate, and he did a great job. The needle did not hurt going in. I only felt some pressure, especially while he was injecting the HCG mixture. After the needle came out, though, I was like...OUCH. It felt like someone had been using my bootie as a punching bag. I had this really deep muscle ache, which I suppose makes sense since the injection is supposed to go deep into the muscle. I massaged the area for a bit and then went back to bed. This morning it still ached, but I went to the gym to try to walk off some of the pain. It isn't too bad now. All in all, today....my belly hurts from the bruising from twice daily shots, my arms are sore from having my blood drawn about 4 times, my bootie hurts from the trigger shot, and my ovaries are totally barking! Well, not literally barking...but barking because they are sore. Don't I make the IVF process sound so appealing? Makes you feel like you missed out by having kids the "traditional" way, doesn't it?

I do not have to have any shots today. I only have to take two antibiotics tonight. Tomorrow I will be up at 5am to get some food in me (I can't eat after 5:45am). Then back to bed and up by 8am to get some liquid in me (no liquids for me after 8:45am). We will leave here by 9:30am to make sure that we are in Rockville by 11:15am. The acutal procedure is scheduled for 12:45pm.

The egg retrieval is a simple surgical procedure, but I will be given a general anesthetic (aaahhh...sleepy time) in order to keep me comfortable. A large needle, guided by ultrasound, will be pushed through the vaginal wall in order to access the ovaries. The follicles will be aspirated into the needle, and the needle will then be removed. An embryologist will be on hand to take the follicles and assess them. We will be given an initial egg report after the procedure. We will continue to get daily fertilization and growth reports from the nurses up until the time of egg transfer. Starting tomorrow night, we will begin the progesterone in oil (PIO) intramuscular injections. These shots are used to prepare my body for a potential pregnancy and to better equip my body to maintain a pregnancy. These are intramuscular (IM) injections that I will receive daily until the time of a pregnancy test. In addition to these shots, I will continue taking my prenatal vitamins and baby aspirin, and I will begin taking another hormone supplement called Estrace. So - the really big stuff all gets started tomorrow. We are well on our way!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Trigger Shot Tonight!

Well, I missed the call from my nurse, but she did leave a message that we are to administer the trigger shot tonight. I do not know what my estrogen level was, but apparently it was high enough to make them want to trigger to help avoid OHSS. Pictured above are the vials of water and HCG powder to make up the shot, and the needle that Matt will have to use to inject the mixture. This shot will be an intramuscular shot, so it will be given in the outer/upper part of the buttocks. My nurse drew large circles on my backside to give Matt an idea of where to shoot me up. The shot needs to be given at an EXACT time, and the OR scheduler called to let us know that we have to give the shot at 12:45 AM. We will be setting our alarm for 12:30pm to get up to do this. Uggh! The egg retrieval will be scheduled for 36 hours after the trigger shot is given. So, egg retrieval will take place at 12:45PM on Saturday. We need to arrive at the office at 11:45AM to get things started. Tomorrow I will need to continue taking my prenatal vitamins, and I will have to take two Zithromax pills tomorrow evening. These are antibiotics that are given just in case an unknown infection is raging somewhere in my body. Outside of that, tomorrow will be the only day that I do not receive an injection of some sort. Woo hoo! I will give more details on the upcoming egg retrieval tomorrow.

Thursday

We are getting close. Today's ultrasound still showed around 19 total follicles. In my right ovary I have 5 follicles greater than 12 mm, and five other ones are ranging from 14.8mm to 17.8mm. In my left ovary I have 5 follicles greater than 12 mm, and four other ones ranging from 16.7 to 18.3. I am borderline for being triggered at this point, but they would like me to do another day of stims (lower dose) to get the smaller follicles to catch up. However, if my estrogen levels come back too high, they will trigger me tonight in hopes of warding off OHSS (ovarian hyper-stimulation syndrome). OHSS can be very serious and can lead to fluid build-up in the abdominal cavity. This can sometimes force a patient to be hospitalized. So - if necessary, I will trigger tonight with fewer mature follicles, but we should still have at least eight good ones. Ideally, though, I will have one more stim shot tonight and trigger tomorrow night. This would give us the best chance of more mature follicles at retrieval.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

A Side of Me You Have Never Seen (that being the inside...)

Above is an ultrasound photo of my right ovary and left ovary. The darkened "ovals" are individual follicles. I have approximately 19 follicles in both ovaries combined, more follicles being in the left than in the right. The size of the larger follicles ranges from 13.6 mm to 16.6 mm. My estrogen level came back at 1783 today. Given that number, the RE is reducing my dosage of Gonal-F from 2 vials down to 1.5 vials. We are still on schedule for doing our trigger injection on Friday, which would mean that the egg retrieval would be performed on Sunday. In the interim, we will continue administering the lupron injections in the morning and the "stim cocktail" injections in the evening. I will go back to the RE's office in the morning for monitoring once again.

(please note: ultrasound photos pleasantly provided by Stephen J. Greenhouse, MD, FACOG of Shady Grove Fertility Reproductive Science Center)

My Endometrium


Above is an ultrasound picture of my endometrium. Today it was measuring 10.2mm.

(please note: ultrasound photo courtesy of Stephen J. Greenhouse, MD, FACOG of Shady Grove Fertility Reproductive Science Center)

Monday, June 19, 2006

Monday, Monday


Well, today was another visit to the RE's office for monitoring. I had to have my blood drawn once again and submit to another ultrasound. After three blood draws I am starting to show some "track marks" and some bruising (see above). This will get much worse by the end of the week. As of right now, I am carrying a total of 20 follicles...12 in my left ovary and 8 in my right ovary. All of the follicles are measuring between 10 and 15mm. Everything is growing nicley at this point. I can now "feel" my ovaries when I sit down. They are starting to get just a bit uncomfortable, especially the left one. My endometrium is measuring 8.8 mm, which is a nice increase from Saturday. My estrogen level came back at 810, which is also a very good increase from Saturday. I get to take one more day off in between doctor's appointments, so I do not have to go back until Wednesday. Starting Wednesday, I will be going in every day. My RE thinks that we could be doing our trigger injection (HCG, or human chorionic gonadatropin) on Friday. This trigger injection is an intramuscular injection (long needle that has to be jabbed into the backside of my hip / upper part of my buttocks) that will "trigger" ovulation. IF we do get to have the trigger injeciton on Friday, that will put us having the egg retrieval on Sunday. Things can always change, though, so nothing is written in stone as of yet.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Saturday's Update

Just got back from the RE's office. Everything is still looking great, and I have a lot going on in my ovaries. My right ovary has one measurable follicle (9.7 mm) and five other follicles under 10 mm. My left ovary has three measurable follicles (11.2 mm, 10.7 mm, 9.5 mm) and 10 other follicles under 10 mm. My uterine lining (endometrium) is showing a triple layer, which is exactly what it should be doing at this point. The endometrium is measuring 6.6 mm as well. By the time of trigger / ER the endometrium should be anywhere from 8 - 16mm. The nurse called and noted that my E2 level (estrogen) is 307. This is an excellent number for this stage of the process. It needs to be above 800 by the time of the trigger injection (E2 levels should rise 50 - 100% every other day during stims). I have to return for monitoring on Monday morning at 8:30am. After Monday's appointment, I will probably have to go for monitoring EVERY day. Once things pick up, the RE needs to keep a close eye on me to make sure that I don't overstimulate, and so they can know when to best trigger ovulation. So - that will be all until Monday!

Friday, June 16, 2006

TGIF

Well, today is Friday. It is my fifth day of stim shots, and it is my eleventh day of lupron shots. By the end of the day today, I will have received a total of 16 shots. For fun, Matt and I might start playing connect the red dots on my belly. There are plenty of them to connect. I am extremely happy that Matt has returned home, as I have had to give myself five stinkin' shots. It is no fun to shoot yourself up, and I really wonder how anyone becomes an IV drug user. I am suffering from persistent headaches every day. This is a side effect of the lupron, I believe. I go to bed with a splitting headache, and I wake up with one, as well. I am only starting to get a little bit bloated. Yesterday was another day of monitoring at the RE's office. I had more bloodwork and another ultrasound done. I was told that it was just to measure how things were getting kicked off, and I am kicking things off quite nicely. So far, I have eight potential follicles growing in my right ovary and nine potential follicles growing in my left one. Not all are guaranteed to mature, and there is still a possibility that I could produce even more. However, seventeen is a great number with which to start. I will go back to the RE's office tomorrow morning (yes...I have to go in even on Saturdays) for yet more monitoring. Tomorrow's update will provide more insight on how well the follicles are growing. As of right now, it looks like egg retrieval could be as early as next Friday. It is still all just a guessing game at this time, though.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Stim Cocktail Hour


The baseline ultrasound and bloodwork went well today. My uterine lining was fine, and both ovaries were free of cysts. One ovary had five potential follicles waiting to be stimulated, and the other ovary had six. My primary nurse called me this afternoon to tell me that I should start taking my stim shots tonight. I will be having a "stim cocktail" every evening consisting of two vials of Gonal-F (150 IU) and one vial of Menopur (75 IU). They are pictured here with my sharps container which holds all of the discarded needles. This stim cocktail is given approximately twelve hours after the lupron shots in the morning. Tomorrow the lupron will be reduced to only 5 units (down from 20 units). I will continue on the same dosage of stims and lupron through Thursday when I return to the doctor's office for more monitoring (ultrasound and bloodwork). We accidentally nicked a vein this morning while administering the lupron shot. I now have a tiny blood blister on my belly. This evening's shot was a little bit better, but we still had a small bleeder. I am officially becoming a pin-cushion! Oh the joys of IVF!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

One Step Closer...

Well, my cycle day one ended up arriving earlier than expected. Cycle day one was on Saturday, June 10th. It is required that I go to see the RE (reproductive endocrinologist) on cycle day 3 to have a "lupron evaluation". They will do a baseline ultrasound and bloodwork. This will let the doc know where my hormone levels are at this time and if my uterine lining looks as it should. If everything looks good, I will be instructed to start my stim shots (gonal-F and Menopur). These stim shots will be given in the evenings, and they will help stimulate my ovaries to produce multiple follicles (which will hopefully yield a good amount of viable eggs). So - tomorrow morning I will have the tests done, and I will more than likely begin the stim shots tomorrow night. Stay tuned!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Done with BCPs!

So - today is my last day on birth control pills (BCPs). Matt is in NYC, so I had to give myself the lupron shot in the belly this morning. The first stab was not hard enough, but I made sure the second one was. All in all, it wasn't too bad. Now that the pills are done, I have to wait for my next "cycle" to start. Once that happens I will be scheduled for a "lupron evaluation" to see where my hormone levels are at and what my uterine lining looks like. At that point they will let me know when to start stims. So - we are in a waiting pattern for a few days, but luckily enough I will still be getting a shot every day.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Let the Games Begin!


So - here we are, officially kicking off the IVF journey. Today was our first day of shots. At least for now, all we have to do is one shot of Lupron in the mornings. The process goes something like this:
  • wash hands
  • take cap off of lupron vial, and clean top of vial with an alcohol wipe
  • take cap off of disposable needle
  • pull back on plunger to draw 20 units of air into syringe
  • push needle through top of lupron vial and inject the 20 units of air
  • tip vial upside down, and draw plunger back to get 20 units of liquid
  • tap on needle to get air bubbles to top, and prime needle if necessary to release air
  • pinch a bit of skin under the bellybutton, but still near it, and wipe with alcohol
  • jab needle all the way into the skin and inject all of liquid
  • remove needle and place in Sharps container
  • stare at each other in amazement that you actually have to do this

Doesn't it all sound very romantic? We like to cuddle afterwards...

Also, I started taking the baby / children's aspirin today. It is the chewable kind, and it tastes a bit like orange flavored rat poison. No wonder children don't like taking their medicine.

Friday, June 02, 2006

All of our IVF Meds


For those of you who are getting anxious to see / learn more about our IVF process, here is a photo for you. This is a picture of all of our IVF meds...pills, shots, etc.

First Shots Begin Tuesday, June 6


The first shots we will be doing are Lupron sub-q shots. We will do the shots each morning. This particular drug is used to keep me from ovulating, so the doctors can control the entire process. I will also begin taking baby aspirin the same day. The baby aspirin is used to improve blood flow. I will continue administering the lupron shots in the belly once a day up until the time of egg retrieval (ER).

Thursday, June 01, 2006

The Whole Fam-damily....The In-Laws

Sprinkler and Smiley









Batman versus his nemesis...the Sprinkler! Also - he mentioned earlier that he can smile...well, here is the proof!

NATURE'S CHILD - a poem by Megan R.

NATURE'S CHILD
The wanton child tipped back her head
To suck the seeping sun
Golden drops of angels' flesh
Ripped through the chosen one
Drowning shadows on mountainsides
Danced to violent thunder hymns
Tripping down paled rays
Hexed by shrilling lightning screams
A rocky crest led to the shore
Swallowed by the light
Solar with lunar havens met
Spitting out the night
Halos wrapped around her head
Stretched taut with clinging bands
Harnessed winds disbanded ties
Cradling her with unseen hands
A hungry cave cut back its grin
Opening wide for its meal
Fate unwove, though shell of life,
The lone morsel stone could steal
Carefree soul now wanders earth
Bonding spirit with the land
Protected by her ancient caller
Separate now from man
Keeper of eternal growth
Meshed tight with flower sheath and tree
Her harboring body trapped forever
But her soul forever free
-Megan R.

One Day in Chi-Town...a past journal entry

The days are getting shorter. The heavy darkness of the summer nights is blanketing the sun earlier than I would like. The summer is slowly, but almost too quickly, fading away. Where does the time go? How is it that I have so lost myself in the vacuum of time that I can't even directly put my finger on to where it has slipped away? As much as I look forward to what each day and each moment will bring, I am saddened by what time has taken with its passing. But, we can't live in the past, so we must incorporate the delicious parts of it into our future. So - what do we take with us as we move on? How do we decide what is important? I guess it is all tied to feelings. That which is strongest will survive and will move on with us, hopefully growing and ever evolving. Some of the things that I would like to take with me are the fragments of relationships I've encountered - the minute bits and pieces of people who have touched me and filled up the tiny holes in my soul. I would like to take with me what it is to feel loved for exactly who I am - even if the brevity of that feeling is almost incalculable. I would like to take with me that larger than life feeling that has possesed me while in the city continuing on my path of self-exploration and self-realization. I would like to take with me the feeling of the warm sun hitting my face while it reflects off of the river below. I would like to take with me the feeling of the wind tangling itself violently into my hair without even caring what it has done to my appearance during its dance. I want to take with me all of those pure raw feelings that somehow hit me every day as I escape from the mundane pace of the rest of the world. I hope that my words can remind me of all of those intangible wonders that I have clumsily stumbled upon, yet that I have felt with an all-knowing conviction and want.
-Megan

Pre-Plunge


This is it. One of the last moments as semi-single people. The day after this we took the plunge and became Mr. and Mrs.

COLORADO





Matt and I LOVE Colorado. He went to college in Ft. Collins, and he stayed in Colorado for quite some time after graduating. I "lived" in Ft. Collins with friends the summer before starting college. I have been visiting Colorado with my family since I was just a little kid. If we could move to once place and live there forever...it would definitely be the mountain state. For right now, though, we will continue to travel there to ski, sight-see, hike, and whatever else we can do!

ps - in case you can't tell, Matt is the skier on the left...and I am the skier on the right!

The Girls



My two best friends are very different people, but both lovely in their own right. Kelly (on the left) and I went to college together. We both hated our sorority together, and spent most of our time at the bar. I must say that it did not affect my GPA in the least...it might have even helped! Kelly is married to Jason, they live in a suburb of Chicago, and they are expecting their first baby (a boy) in August. Canella (on the right) and I used to work together. I actually interviewed and hired her to replace me when I was promoted to a new position at an IT consulting firm. We hit it off from the start, and we are friends after both of us have moved on from that employer. Canella just received her associate's degree and will be continuing her education after she moves. She will be moving from Chicago to North Carolina toward the end of the year.

Please note: during this toast at my rehearsal dinner, I am toasting with a full pot of coffee. Why? Because it was there, and apparently I had misplaced my wine.

My Family



My parents, Bob and Judy, reside in a far west suburb of Chicago. They both were born and raised in northern Illinois. During the Vietnam war, my father was deployed to and stationed in Panama. My mom moved to Panama and worked in a hospital there in order to be with my dad when she could. Outside of that, Illinois has been their home. Both of my parents are retired from the insurance industry. They enjoy spending time playing in the river behind their home (fishing / canoeing / etc.). Their post-retirement routine includes taking as many road trips as possible all over the US. This summer they plan to take the motor home and head to Alaska. Their dog Eenie will be joining them on their adventure.I also have an older sister, Erin. She is married to Doug, and they have two sons. Benjamin is a little over 2 years old, and Paxon was born just this May.

The In-Laws


Jerry and Joanne are my in-laws. They still reside in a small town in Ohio. Jerry is a "retired" business owner who enjoys playing gin at the Elks Club. He is an active person who likes to work out regularly to maintain his health. In addition, he tries to travel to Colorado once a year to get in some time on the slopes. His favorite pastime is hosting tailgate parties at The Ohio State University football games. Joanne is a talented artist (water color) and an avid volunteer in her community. She has won the "volunteer of the year" award so many times that is now named after her and given out to other volunteers. Joanne's favorite pastime is trying to convince Jerry not to host OSU football game tailgate parties. Both are wonderful people to have as family.

In addition, Matt has two older siblings. His brother Scott and his family live in Ohio. Scott has two sons, Jameson and Mitchell. His sister Kim lives in Pennslyvania with her two daughters, Catherine and Maggie. Catherine is just finishing up her first year of college...nice job!...so she only lives at home part of the time.

BATMAN RETURNS



Hello, my name is Batman. I know...everyone says the same thing...I don't look like the real Batman. Please remember, though, that only the Batman costume was black, muscular, and shiny. Bruce Wayne was just a normal little white guy underneath...just like me.

I absolutely love my peeps. They take me for long walks in the park and for fun rides in the Jeep. My favorite games to play are frisbee, "hat", and football. Daddy doesn't let me play football much anymore, though, because I don't like to give the football back. Mean daddy... I also love to take drinks from the hose and to try to attack the sprinkler. Those things are crazy! I have a unique talent, which is that I can "smile" when my parents want me to. I really enjoy tearing all of the stuffing out of my toys and trying to find those cool little squeaky prizes on the inside. Who thought of such wonderful concepts for toys? When I am not out trying to save the world, I also enjoy taking naps (especially with my mommy).

My parents keep trying to tell me that I am a dog, but I still don't buy it. I am just a furry little person who happens to not be able to stand upright. I can't wait for my mommy and daddy to bring me a little brother or sister to play with. I am looking forward to the day that I will be able to clean up any baby food mishaps that find their way to the floor.

If you need any superhero assistance in the future, please do not hesitate to shine the bat symbol in the sky. I will find you...

- Batman

My Husband


I am thankful everyday for having such a wonderful person in my life. My husband, Matt, is my "favorite". He is bold, caring, ambitious, funny, loyal, and an all-around great guy. He was born and raised in a small town about an hour west of Columbus, OH. He graduated from Colorado State University in 1992. He has lived all over the US, and has traveled all over the world. He is a fantastic skier and holds Colorado dear to his heart. He is a huge sports fan, and his two favorite teams are the Dallas Cowboys and The Ohio State University Buckeyes. He has (for the most part) his dream job working for the North American headquarters for Porsche (PCNA). Who wouldn't enjoy getting to drive a race car as a perk?

Matt -

Thank you for continually speaking your mind and your heart - it melts me.
Thank you for loving me in a way that I have never experienced before and that I don't think I could ever experience with anyone else.
Thank you for being silly and for being serious.
Thank you for knowing exactly why I smile or giggle, even though I have not said a word.
Thank you for listening to me when I vent.
Thank you for laughing at me and poking fun at me when I pout or complain.
Thank you for having your eyes speak everything that my heart feels.
Thank you for just being in my life and for wanting me in yours.
I love you....

- Megan